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The old man inside
Inside me lives an old man who never moves or sleeps and is always patiently awaiting my visits. When I visit him I leave my worries at his door and sit with him in silence. Without words, he restores me. When I leave, my story has changed, touched by his peace, wisdom, and the quiet voice of my Creator.
There is an old man who lives inside me. He has always been there. He does not wander and he does not sleep. He sits in a small quiet home at the center of my being, waiting for me to return. I go to him whenever the world becomes too loud, whenever my thoughts begin to spin, whenever I forget who I am. His door is never locked.
When I arrive, I take off my shoes before I enter. I do not bring my worries inside because they do not belong in his home. They wait outside, often like restless, pacing animals. Inside, the air is calm. The old man is always sitting in the same place, settled in his chair by the window, as if he has been expecting me.
He does not rush toward me and he does not need to speak. I sit across from him and we let the silence fill the room. It is the best silence I know. It is a silence that clears fog from the mind and weight from the chest. I feel myself slow down. I feel myself return.
Sometimes he looks at me with eyes that feel older than time. There is no judgment in them. There is only recognition, and something that feels like a deeper kind of love. Without speaking, he reminds me that I do not have to carry everything alone. He reminds me that the stories I live are not written in stone. He reminds me that peace is not something I seek out in the world but something I come home to.
We sit in that silence for as long as it takes. I never know how long it has been. I only know that at some point, something inside me shifts. A new clarity settles where confusion used to be. A new steadiness replaces the fear I brought with me. The old man has not said a word, yet I leave with answers. They come through his presence which is louder than any voice.
When I finally stand and put my shoes back on, I brace for the world outside. My story will not be the same story I walked in with. Something will have changed. Sometimes I will notice that change immediately. Sometimes it will unfold slowly across the next few hours, or days, or moments when I least expect it. But it always comes as wisdom, or small messages hidden in coincidence, or sudden clarity in things that were tangled before. They are gentle but unmistakable.
The old man never walks me to the door. He stays in his chair, peaceful and rooted. He will be there the next time I visit. He will be there as long as I live. His home is always open. His silence is always waiting. And he always knows exactly what I need. Prayer is simply my way of returning to the one who carries the voice of my Creator, who restores me, and who reminds me that I am never walking my story alone.
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